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This has been one of the greatest summers of my life so far. Choosing to go to school during the summer, while seeming absolutely insane at first, turned out to be one of the best decisions I've ever made. I have met so many wonderful people and made lots of new friends. Just when I thought I was a hopeless and utter disaster, these people showed me that there was still hope. As I said goodbye to one of my good friends who leaves on his mission tomorrow, I realized that even though I've only known them for a short while, I'm going to miss seeing them every Sunday at church, or in the hallway. I'm even going to miss the random, awkward situations created everyday when people just show up at my door or I embarrass myself in front of my roommates cute home teacher. These people changed me in just a short couple of weeks and I am grateful that they did. I see the world in a whole new way now and I have every single one of them to thank for that. So even though I may not see any of them ever again, they'll always be my friends and that's a good feeling to have. It makes saying goodbye a lot easier.
Well, I guess I'd better get back to studying for finals, but I just want you to know that there is always hope in the world. There are always people who will change your misconceptions of love, life and/or people in general. So don't give up just yet. I almost did, but if I had I wouldn't be the person I am now. It's worth it. I promise.
xx

C O L L E G E

Well guys, college is a FREAKING PARTY!!! And I'm not even kidding. I've met more people I like in the past 5 than I have in my entire life. I've also probably partied harder in these past 5 days than I ever have before. So if you're considering going to college, I say DO IT! Its totally worth it and you will have the best time of your life. And I've only been here a couple days, so if I can say that in this short amount of time, you know its worth checking out.

Peace out homies xxx

Fernweh

What's up peeps?! Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. Ha. Like the three of you that follow me really care that much. ;)

Well I'm about to start college. In just a couple days, actually. I'm both terrified and excited. But mostly excited. I'm ready to meet new people and get away from this place.

Wish me luck on my new adventure! xx

Moving On

A lot has been happening in my life over the past few months. I finished the hard part of Senior Project and graduation is coming fast. Soon after that I'll be heading to BYU. Its crazy how close everything is, and we never thought it would ever get here.

Over these last few months I've also learned that you can't let other people determine your happiness. I know that's what everyone says, and I always believed it, but I just kept saying to myself, when I get friends I'll be happy. Or, when I graduate I'll be happy. If I could just get out of this town I'll be happy. But no. You can't live your life that way or you'll NEVER be happy, and unfortunately I learned this the hard way. It took almost two years for me to get this, but I'm glad I finally did. There are things that come along with this, however. Because I'm growing as a person, I feel like I'm leaving people behind and there's nothing I can do about that. It's sad, but maybe it's time for me to be my own person. To finally understand what it's like to be really, truly me.

We'll see how this goes, but for now, choose to live your life in happiness now instead of later. xxx

Love

It's Valentine's Day. And once again I spent it by my lonesome. It's kind of alright, because my best friend asked me to be her valentine, but still I was alone. Maybe it would have been better if I could have spent at least part of the day with the cute boy in my seminary class, but, of course, the universe had other plans for me. Oh well. I guess I have many more Valentine's to come. Hopefully. Maybe they'll be cats, but at least I'll have something. :)

2013

I know, I know. I'm wayyyy late on the New Year post, but oh well, at least it's happening, eh?? 2012 held a lot of hard times for me, but I learned some good stuff. I'm grateful for the experience, but I'm glad I'll never have to live through another 2012.
 So far this years been fantastic!! I took a trip to Logan and Bear Lake. That was an adventure I'll never forget. And one that I never want to. I took creeper pictures of my best friend's cousin. I finished my first semester of my senior year. I ate Panda. My fortune cookie came true. Me and my sister cupcaked.
This happened:



 

And I finally feel like I'm becoming "me," the person I'm supposed to be. So here's to you and your New Year. I hope it's a great one for y'all. xxx 

Grateful

-It's Christmas Break
- I'm safe at school
- My family loves me
- I have friends
- I have a BEST friend
- I can be myself
- I don't care what people think about me, or my ugly sweaters :)
- No school for a while
- Parties
- It's the Christmas Season
- Answers to prayers
- The Savior, his life and that He died for me

Merry Christmas y'all! Enjoy spending the holiday with your family. xx

Feels.

In the past few days I have experienced way too many feelings. Haylor. One Direction playing Madison Square Garden. Payzer getting back together. Haylor. Boys. Boys. Boys. It's a lot to put on one girl. Haylor. Is not okay. And it's not that I don't want Harry to be happy, it's just that I wish he could be happy with someone else. Someone that won't make a boat load of money off their break up. I just don't want him to get hurt.

Boys. It's always a horrible feeling when you have to sit by your friend and her boyfriend. Cause they're all in love and you're just sitting there like 'I. Love. Food.' good thing I'm forever alone with my best friend or I couldn't make it through the day. But then sometimes boys are sweet and you're like 'Aww! I could love you!' but you never know what they're really thinking. Sometimes it is too much for a person and you have to pick food over a boy.

Hopefully your love life is way more existent than mine. :)
xx

I'm Back Jack!!!!

Well folks, I'm officially legal! My 18th birthday was on Thanksgiving. Pretty legit, eh?? Anywho, it was a fabulous day spent with my whole family, that I love deeply. They're the greatest. I also got to share my birthday party with my precious little cousin Hayden. She's a doll. :)

 I also got to spend the day before with my best friend, Becca! She is honestly the greatest, and I would be lost without her. We didn't do anything crazy or exciting. But that's ok, because being able to see her and laugh like we always do was just the sam. SHOUTOUT!! x

Also, guess who got Take Me Home for her birthday?? This girl! (Me) Best. Present. Ever.

Peace! xx

Hands

You know you have an A+ physics teacher when he runs down the hall during class after a toy hovercraft yelling at kids to "get out of the way!!!!" and to "move your feet!!"

I know lots of Nates, and they're all my favorite in different ways. Some of them compliment my hair, others have nice hands and others I have tender moments with that make me believe the human race is not nearly so bad. :)

Just watched One Direction perform on the X-Factor for Uncle Simon. So precious. He was so proud. It was fabulous. Then they played their Pepsi commercial. It was golden. "And I'm Harry.." hahahaha. Little Things live= perfection

Also, congratulations to President Obama, for another 4 years. May the odds be ever in your favor. :)

Happy days! xx

Ed the Magnificent

Have you ever felt alone when you're surrounded by your own friends?? That's how I feel everyday. It's not fun. I hate that when a teacher says you can work with a partner I have no one there and I end up being the loser without a partner. I hate that no one cares about me as much as I care about them and I hate that when I put everything into a relationship I get nothing back. I'm tired of having a broken heart. I just wish someone would come along and fix it already.

Thank goodness the world has an Ed Sheeran in it, because he is the bomb.com. No joke. He should recieve an award for being a boss at writing songs. There should also be a national Ed day. There would be no school or work and everyone could get together, write songs and sing. Maybe it could be on a beach, with instruments and friends. It would be in honor of the great Ed Sheeran, 'cause he deserves it.

Also, I have a confession.... I love Taylor Swift's new album, Red. I'm not a big fan of hers, but this album is golden. It's different and so amazing.

Happy Monday y'all! xx

Awk.

My whole life is one awkward situation. For reals. Today alone I experienced at least 12 awkward moments. AP Government was an awkward party. I might as well have had 'awkward' written across my forehead. It was so bad, but what can a girl do? My life is sups awk, but that's the way I like it. :)

May your life be way less awkward than mine. xx

Hobos

The other day I told my dad I was going to drop out of school and become a hobo. True story. I'm still considering it.

Yesterday in Physics we discussed force. There's a kid in my class who's, well, let's just say he's different. He tried to move my teacher using the 'Star Wars' force. It was awesome. In the words of my dear friend Jeff, "Seems legit!" This same kid is now in my lab group. Instead of trying to learn all of our names, he gave us nicknames. I am the yellow power ranger, Jeff is the blue power ranger, Nate is the green power ranger and he is the red power ranger because he's (in his words), "the good-looking one."

I love boys. Especially nice ones. And ones that compliment my sparkly shoes. :)
I enjoy yolo-ing with my cousins. It makes for some grand memories.
I'm really loving Imagine Dragons. If you haven't heard of them, listen to this song. Then go look up more of their songs and fall madly in love with them like I have. :)

 

On that wonderful note, I shall leave you be. :) Have a wonderful weekend folks! xx

Dear World

Sometimes I really love people: they're nice and sweet and wonderful. Other times I think humans are not so great; I want to punch them in the face and then run away to a beach with my guitar. Wouldn't that be the life.

Please can it rain??? It would make my life right now. I would also prefer if you could time it so I'm with certain people. So we can enjoy it together. :) Thank you.

I've learned lots of news this week concerning the love triangle I am currently involved in. Things are a bit clearer and they're starting to make more sense, which also makes things more complicated, unfortunately. That doesn't make sense, you say? Trust me, I don't get it either. Love is rough, I'll tell you what. If love wasn't so complicated we would all be happier and the world would be a better place. Maybe that's the whole point, though. Maybe, when we have love, we'll look back on all of the tears we cried, hearts that were broken and loves that were lost and we'll say, "It was all worth it, because what I have now is better than anything I could have imagined."

I love music. I don't know where i would be without it. Probably living in a hole somewhere. Music has a way of pulling us out of the dark places and back in to the light. It also has the ability to heal our soul when everything else seems to fail. It can express feelings and emotions that are otherwise inexpressible.

The past few days have been really quite wonderful. Yesterday I went to a social gathering at my friend Matt's house. It was a blast. Some of my favorite Meridian people were there! It was definitely a party. It was terribly exhausting, though. Who knew socializing could be so draining!? On the way to this event, me and my friend Morgan went to pick up another friend, Nate. When we got to his house he had just been asked to Sadies! So we helped him pull baggies out of a pumpkin filled with shaving cream and pumpkin innards. It was nasty! But fun. Today I tweeted Jon Shone (One Direction's keyboard player) and Lou Teasdale (One Direction's hair lady) because it was their birthdays!! And Jon Shone favorited it! It made my life. I can now die happy. :)

Best of luck to you all! Have a fabulous Thursday! :) xx

My Blog has Been Birthed!

 

First off, i just want to say THANK YOU to my best friend, Becca, for making this beauty of a blog for me!! I'm very excited. :)

Ok, so I don't really know what I'm supposed to write about, or even what i want to write about, so I guess I'll just start. Two Saturdays ago I went to homecoming with the sweetest boy I've ever known. His name is Kirby, and if I could I would wrap him up, take him home and keep him all to myself. Never sharing him with anyone. For reals. Too bad that's a little bit creepy and not socially acceptable. Anyways, we 'went hard in the paint' and had a blast! My date was a beast at surfing and I didn't even do too bad myself! We also kicked some trash on the ropes course. Just saying. Pretty much me and Kirby are a match made in heaven. So why are we not in love and planning our marriage?? Well, that's what i ask myself everyday, and the answer is this: he's in love with his best friend who may or may not love him back. And I am not that best friend. It's really ok, though, because I make things awkward for them and I'm boss at being the third wheel.

Last week I broke a string on my guitar and I almost cried because it's like my baby. It will hopefully be fixed soon so i can play again, with help from none other than Mr. Kirby! (Did I mention he also plays the guitar and sings??)

On a better note, I have two classes with my 3rd grade lover. Its a little bit awkward because we haven't had a conversation yet, but I'm pretty sure he knows I remember him and he remembers me. Sometimes we have awkward eye contact, but that is currently the extent of our relationship. It's all good though, cause he is really attractive. Oh man. Plus if we got married our story would be the cutest one on the block. :)

So that's pretty much all that's going on in my life right now! Have a nice night! xx